Times that you have to shut it off....

The internet is an addiction. Plain and simple. The more times I think about it, sometime I think why am I doing this or posting what I posting. Of course, you might get those people that say about everything about their detail life on FB. Not only that but looking for a significant other. I have read a lot of those profiles about it.

It was 10 years ago that I went through 2 relationships that lasted 6 months. I was depressed about life and looking for "the one" that will make complete. I was cheated but it did for a reason and it was my fault too in that matter. I was in a deep rut that most of my depression situated when I was growing up, but I didn't know about it until that time. I was looking for companionship to fill my emptiness. The internet is a sure thing due endless time of chats late at night and a webcam to see each other. As more and more people are getting into it, the more empty I became. I mean, there is nothing like seeing people in person, a phone call or just to hang out. From when I graduated in 1997 till around 2004-2005, I was on the internet all the time chatting away. I lost a lot in my life. I still bowled but never tried anything different until I gave ballroom dancing a shot. My mom said it was dancing that saved my life and I became much happy again just by going out. I have nothing against online relationships but sometimes to experience happiness, you have to just shut it off for a while and go somewhere.

The internet is a wonderful place, if you are careful. People can post anything or talk about anything and do what they please. I don't chat as much as I can anymore but I try to do it once in a while. It is good to talk to people but hopefully I will be able to see them in person. I have a host in Malaysia that offered me and my wife to spend time with them. Sometimes there are good people in the world. Got to know when to talk and then are times that you have to shut it off.

Writing again.

For 3 years, I was writing in my MySpace blog. I used to be really prolific writer back in the day with observations about life, my life, events I see and just random things in general. It all came to a end when a couple of things happened.

1. I got a bad feeling when someone in real life that I was good friends with, got offended with an entry and said that I was "coincided" and any other bad word that you can think of.
2. When I first started dating my future wife to be.

Those two events made me decide to stop blogging. Why? What was I thinking? Blogging was a outlet for me in those days to reflect on what was going on. I stopped for the sake of one person? I am feeling better because I am writing again and I still don't feel motivated enough to write all the time. I am married now and that makes it not easier to write what comes to mind that you want to share to the world and to express just to get it out of your system. When I got married, I just wanted to limit the amount that I do just to make my wife happy but I found out that was not the case. Why limit yourself after you got so much in the world in the palm of your hand?